Published August 1, 2014
Darkness, at times, surrounds all of us. It’s impossible to calculate the amount of mental and physical suffering that is endured each day. So often, everything seems hopeless. Despair often shadows our days. We cling to a hope that things will change, that we’ll catch a break.
To look deeply into the darkness of your own imperfect life is the surest way to be transformed by the hopeful light that springs forth from the mercy of God.
God is not hiding in the corner of an empty church. God is hidden in the endless stream of busy, messy, mundane moments of everyday life. Moreover, God is also hidden in the many tragedies that dot the vast landscape of humanity. God is not beyond the clouds; God is on the ground, down in the gutter with us.
At the heart of every life there is a deep, mysterious pain. No one can avoid it or cure it. My faith tells me that God loves me in my brokenness. And that God loves me fully and unconditionally, without a hint of reservation, even in my darkest, most sinful, most unloving moments. God does not demand perfection; God gives love. The essence of faith is trust…trusting in God’s undivided, unmerited love.
Published July 26, 2014
I am a sinner not immune from temptation. I stumble often, often succumb to the deception of my ego. My heart is fickle, my faith weak. Holiness seems beyond my reach. Yet, each day, I pick myself up and keep walking toward the Light, toward the day when I have finally emptied myself of all that is not God. Unity with God does not happen in a flash, is not won by a lottery ticket, instantly bestowing the riches of heaven upon you. Unity with God takes time, as day by day, month by month, year by year we slowly and deliberately let go of more stuff cluttering our tiny hearts in order to make room for the infinite source of love and life.
Published July 23, 2014
The late Monsignor William Shannon, the great Merton scholar who I had the honor of spending time with shortly before his death in 2012, said, “We cannot ignore the fact that we live in a cultural milieu that constantly ignores the needs of the spirit.” Thomas Merton felt that the sickness of our mass society was that it had forfeited its sense of solitude and its capacity for contemplation. Only solitude can save people from the slavery of unthinking conformity to the accepted norms of our consumerist society that denies the inner realities of the human spirit. Our natural capacity of for contemplation has been virtually snuffed out by meaningless distractions and diversions manufactured by the titans of corporate greed. “Shop to you drop” needs to be replaced by “stop until you’re healed.”
We live in an age where modern transportation allows us to go anywhere we want; ironically, we live in an age where many have lost their sense of direction. Monsignor Shannon said, “Physically we can go anywhere we want to, even to the moon and probably to Mars, but spiritually many among us have no notion of where we really want to go.” Our society gives priority to material progress over moral growth and to the efficiency of getting things done over social responsibility. While technology is important and can be good, what we really need is the wisdom that comes from God. Instead we get tweets that say nothing.
Published July 20, 2014
Everyone experiences heartbreak; everyone is in need of tenderness and compassion. At some point in our lives, we all have to face the difficult task of coming to terms with feelings of rejection and humiliation and fear. These very real and very painful feelings, in time and in prayer, become an authentic path from despair to hope. Tragedies and disasters become places of courage, of perseverance, places where we learn to plumb the depths of our inner life, our true essence, and are able, by God’s grace, to move from rejection and terror to healing and hope. Love grows from that deep-rooted pain within the universe where God is present and ever-willing to embrace us and bless us.
Published July 17, 2014
When we are enslaved by obsessive desires, we are not free to pray. When our interest in power, money, and material things is greater than our longing for God, we are still far from authentic prayer. The deeper we journey into prayer, the less interested we are in thoughts rooted in worldly desires and sensory perceptions.
Our prayer should be dressed in reverence and humility, unsoiled by a mind still cluttered, impassioned, and impure. Calm the restlessness of your mind by mindfulness of your breathing and by acts of compassion and mercy. The altar of our spirit should be unadorned and free of false and unhealthy desires.
We must imitate God who stoops down in mercy to touch us. So we too must stoop down in mercy to touch others…even those who live far away. The spiritual life is a twofold journey…an inward movement to the depths of our being and the source of Love, and an outward movement to the broken world, the margins of society, where love is manifested in acts of kindness.
Published July 14, 2014
John’s unique gospel says the voice of the shepherd calls us, and that the followers of the shepherd know the voice of the shepherd. The mystical voice of the shepherd calls us home, home to the experience of shelter and peace. We often lose touch with this voice because of the many distractions of life.
At times we are driven to ask big, life-altering questions, such as what is the meaning of my life or did I make a huge mistake in a promise I made but feel as if I can no longer keep, or do I have some deep unhealed wound. These big, unanswered questions often follow some tragedy or nagging difficulty in our lives. But the voice calls us from this place of inner conflict and tells us to come home to a place of harmony.
For too long I listened to the voice of the world, for too long I lived by false assumptions about life, for too long I was too busy to listen to the inner, mystical voice of the shepherd calling me home. I knew the words of the 23rd Psalm—the Lord is my shepherd—but I did not know the voice of the shepherd. I was lost.
Even after my conversion, I became so busy with my ministry, the voice of the shepherd became muted. A few years ago, I realized I needed to find a place of silence in order to hear more clearly the voice of the shepherd. Slowly I began to hear, albeit faintly, an inner voice in my own life calling me home to a deeper mystical experience. But as I resumed filming and speaking, I found myself once again becoming too busy to hear the voice of the shepherd. I need to listen more intently for the voice of the shepherd. I need to be more diligent in creating space of silence.
Published July 11, 2014
Prayer is the sunrise of the soul. Prayer quiets negative passions. Prayer helps restore our awareness of God. Prayer is an act of humility, stemming from a mindfulness of our inadequacy. Prayer and humility go hand in hand: prayer deepens humility and humility deepens prayer. Prayer prompts us to reach out in compassion to the suffering and weak, and helps us embrace all of humanity.
Prayer slows down the frenzied pace of life. Prayer helps us flee from the storm of negative inner thoughts and the noise that engulfs modern life. Prayer creates the unruffled calmness required to encounter God. To neglect prayer is to neglect God. Prayer is the only weapon we need.